Miscalculation of 40 days
Today is the saddest day of my life. My whole world was turned upside down at 3 am in the morning when my father called and told me that my mother had passed away.
Inna lillahe wa inna ilaihe rajeuun
Finland gave me many things but took away the time that I would've spent with my mother as she will be laid to rest.
She always used to come online on the weekend to talk to me and she did not last night. I found it a bit strange but it was late here already so I did not call home. She laid down in the computer room as she always did and then did not get up. The only solace that I find in all this is that she went peacefully.
I just talked to IT and he asked me that he cannot begin to imagine how I felt and I replied,
"Its just empty space, a void, you try to place anything there and nothing fits and you know that nothing can fit. All the love, care, trust, faith, everything just gone, stripped away and you feel like you will never be loved that way ever again.
Whoever reads this, just call home right now, tell your mom that you love her, even if it is really hard to do. I always did that now I cannot, so do not let this chance be taken away from you because it will be.
I had waited for 25 months and kept on counting days till I get back and meet my mom. Now that day will never come. How will this void be ever filled? Below is the picture of her with me at my brother's mehndi. Can't hold her like that ever again.
19 comments:
إِنَّا لِلّهِ وَإِنَّـا إِلَيْهِ رَاجِعونَ
May Allah grant you sabr and strength to cope with your tremendous loss.
ina lillah wa inna ilahe raajion.
I feel extremely sorry for your loss, friend.
May God give you courage and strength, and her a place in the highest of Heavens. Ameen!
I'm sorry for your loss. May Allah forgive her and grant your and your family, the strength to bear this loss.
Extremely sorry to hear the news..can't even begin to feel ur pain..may Allah give you and your family sabar and a place in heaven for her.. you're all in our prayers.
AoA Sir. I am extremely sorry to hear the news. May Allah grant her the best and unite you with her in the hereafter.
Shakeeb, Batch 12
Inna Lillahe Wa Inna Ilaehe Rajeon
May Allah shower His blessings on the departed soul and bless her with eternal peace. And may He give you great sabar to bear this huge loss.
(Ameen)
Salam Umair
The biggest loss that we have to face one day. Inna Lillahe wa inna ilayhe rajioon. All we can do is to pray for the departed, to do good deeds to make them proud of us (as if they were alive) and of course to prepare ourselves too as we are going to leave this mundane place one day (the biggest truth acceptance of which is the sommet of wisdom).
I feel sad and humble at the same time to share my condolences with you for this irrepairable loss of yours. But in the end, we are helpless towards the same. Only you could have the courage to bear the actual pain that it must have caused, we could only speculate. However, we could always pray to the Almighty to lessen the burden, for you and for your family.
Inna Lillahe Wa Inna Ilaehe Rajeon
Inna Lilahe Wainna Ilaehe Rajeon
AoA Umair,
I'm extremely sad to hear what you had to say about your loss. May God give you and your family all the inner strength to cope with this. And may He bless the departed soul and allow her a place in paradise, Inshallah.
Stay strong! Best Regards.
Ina lillahe wa inna ilahe raajioon.
Very sad news! May Allah send her to the highest places in Jannah and give you the strength to bear such a great loss.
inna lillahe wa inna ilayehi raji'on.
Im shocked to hear this news. Im so sorry about your loss. I wish all the strength and goodwill to you from Allah. May Allah keep her grave colder and fragrant, inshaAllah.
Umair, what can I say? I was going through my e-mail when I saw the subject, and my heart skipped a beat. I can't even say that I am saddened, because I am shocked. I talked to you just a couple of days back, and I know how excited you were about coming back. I really hope and pray Allah gives you the strength to get through this hard time. I pray that Allah rests the departed soul in peace. Please pray for her a LOT.
My dear friend!! May Allah shower aunty with His chosen blessings. May HE exalt her in afterlife and rest her soul in eternal peace and grant her an abode in His Jannah! Ameen!!
The words you write, and your demeanour is simple and composed. And really graceful. But knowing you I cant help feeling that sea of emotion that is always lurking behind, like it always does behind your simplest words. And that my dear friend, makes my heart ache. I just wish and hope that I could be with you at this time. rest assured, my prayers and my thoughts are with you.
May Allah be with you!
I really appreciate all the kind words and prayers that all of you have given me, my family and most importantly, Ammi.
I used to talk to her via video chat, almost daily and she used to say that she never felt that I was away from her as it feels like she opens a window and talks to me. I on the other hand felt her miles and miles apart.
A few days back I missed her a lot and asked her to come online to talk but I never told her that I missed her because she was angry at me for prolonging my MS and would've scolded me again by saying ,"Itna hi yaad kertay ho to MS khatam kyun nahin kertay!"
Yesterday, I talked home again and kept finding her in the images. I tell you this not for sympathies but to let you know that this time will come on all of us, we all have to go through this pain, just use the time you have to tell your loved ones that you love them... I always did.
Once again, I thank you all for your support
Bods... I am so shocked to know the news.. It was so depressing.
May your mother's soul find a perfect place in heaven.
i wish i could come to see ya. not that it would have helped you by any chance, but still...
Take care man. Hope to see you in Pak soon. Do inform me whenever you land here.
AoA Sir,
Having known you so well and passed a good time with you over the years, I was shocked to hear the bad news.
Inna Lillahe Wa Inna Ilaehe Rajeon
May God give you courage and strength to face this time and give Aunty a place in jannat ... Ameen
Hashim Ali.
B12.
I feel really sorry for this huge loss. Allah may grant you patience and rest her soul in peace.Also be strong to make your family feel better and pray for her as much as you can. u r in our prayers.
Regards.
Atif Saleem(Batch11)
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